Dance for me

It was a usual Saturday. I was really tired and bored that day. My mum wanted me to accompany her to watch a movie and so I did. While walking in the mall, I had an eye contact with a guy eating dinner in one of the food stands. I looked at him again and he looked back. If my mum was not with me I would have approached the guy at an instant. I made a clever move and requested my mum to go ahead first and buy us some tickets and told her I need to look at some clothes first. When I look back, the guy was no longer there. Darn! I hurriedly went to the exit and there I found him walking away. I followed him and he looked back. We made another eye contact and he stopped and sat on the corners of the walkway. I made conversations with him which I couldn't recall now. Anyway, we agreed to watch a movie on Sunday. What a fantantic day!

mr smoker

I met Raffy in the chatroom. It was a usual chatting days. Then I met this cute guy. I was hesitant to share my photo because he might turn me down. I don't think I'm cute, I would consider myself as mediocre looking. But there are times I feel goodlucking (not this day though). But I still gave my photo because I want to be honest. After I gave it, he didn't shut me down (yahoo). So we kept talking and talking and talking. Then I kidded him, let's have sex. Right now!!! And he said yes (yahooooo). I asked, 'Really?'. He said yes again. My oh my. Opportunity knocks only once so I instantly grabbed it. So I hurriedly drove to Araneta Coliseum to meet him. Man, was I a nervous wreck. Insecurities started to creep in. I stopped my car and this cute guy with a nice built entered my car. I remember when I first met him, my first reaction was he was soooo cute. I was the luckiest guy that day. He looked at me and smiled at me. I thought he would cancel our plans but he didn't. So I asked him where we're going to do 'it' and he said he knows a motel. He told me he usually goes to this place. Wow we have an expert in the house. It's kinda humiliating coming to the motel with a guy but I just ignored it.

I was innocent about sex during that time. And he was an expert. I felt silly doing it because I don't know how to do it. Good thing he knows a lot. I remember kissing his hard body. I remember kissing him. I remember tasting cigarettes from his mouth. I won't go into details on it. I can only say that I really enjoyed it. I came home very thankful for the experience and hoping it won't be the last time I'll go out with him.

cyber love (muah)

I'm a chat addict. I was addicted to chatting because it was an opportunity for me to meet guys like me. It was such a big relief to know that its not only me who are experiencing this confusion. It was also good to know that there are a lot of cute guys out there just like me (yeah baby). Although there are times that chatting can be exhaustive and disappointing. You see, during chatting you'll swap informations like age, sex, location and pictures. And I found that most of them don't really give their real picture. I kinda understand, yah know, its tough out there. If you're not cute, guys will stop talking to you. I've experience this... being shut out and shutting out. That's the way it is. If you can't handle the heat, then get out of the damn kitchen!

College of Loneliness

College was one of the best years of my life. It was during this time that I made a lot of friends. Friends that I can keep for life. It's been 5 years now and I still keep in touch with some of them. I also excelled academically and received an award for that (very cool!). But when I look back, I realize that my love life was zero. That is sad. Depressing at worst. I don't know why it happened like that. I remember there were times I would sit in front of the football fields, hoping that some guys would take an interest on me. I remember having eye to eye contact with guys but sadly no second look. Why oh why?!? I guess that why I'm on a (desperate) rampage for love heheeh.